In This Darkness
Clara La San Lyrics

Jump to: Overall Meaning ↴  Line by Line Meaning ↴I get lonely when you′re not here
And this darkness appears, leaving me stranded
My hope washes down
You never lived here
And I never felt I ever had you

There's a million things
There′s a million things I could say

But you never really knew that
But you never really knew I felt this way
Wanna take it back
Wanna take it back to when we
Had it just like that
Had it right on track

And I keep falling in this darkness
And there's no one to light it up
To bright it up, yeah
And I keep falling in this darkness
And there's no one to light it up
To bright it up, yeah
And I keep falling in this darkness
And there′s no one to light it up
To bright it up, yeah
And I keep falling in this darkness
And there′s no one to light it up
To bright it up

I never had
Thoughts that control me
Until something bad
Left me so lonely
And I want it back
I want the old me
I'm trying to forget
But things just remind me

There′s a million things
There's a million things I could say
But you never really knew that
But you never really knew I felt this way
Wanna take it back
Wanna take it back to when we
Had it just like that
Had it right on track

And I keep falling in this darkness
And there′s no one to light it up
To bright it up, yeah
And I keep falling in this darkness
And there's no one to light it up
To bright it up, yeah
And I keep falling in this darkness
And there′s no one to light it up
To bright it up, yeah
And I keep falling in this darkness
And there's no one to light it up
To bright it up

There's a million things
There′s a million things I could say
But you never really knew that
But you never really knew I felt this way
Wanna take it back
Wanna take it back to when we
Had it just like that
Had it right on track
There′s a million things
There's a million things I could say
But you never really knew that
But you never really knew I felt this way
Wanna take it back
Wanna take it back to when we
Had it just like that
Had it right on track

And I keep falling in this darkness
And there′s no one to light it up
To bright it up, yeah
And I keep falling in this darkness
And there's no one to light it up
To bright it up, yeah
And I keep falling in this darkness
And there′s no one to light it up
To bright it up, yeah
And I keep falling in this darkness

And there's no one to light it up
To bright it up

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of Clara La San's song In This Darkness express the feeling of loneliness and being left behind by someone who was never truly committed to the relationship. The opening lines "I get lonely when you're not here / and this darkness appears, leaving me stranded" paint a picture of a lost and lonely soul who suffocates in the absence of a significant other. The singer's hope is crushed, as they realize that the other person never really lived with them, leading to feelings of abandonment and emptiness. This realization is reflected in the lyrics "My hope washes down / You never lived here / And I never felt I ever had you".

The chorus of the song repeats the same lines, "And I keep falling in this darkness / And there's no one to light it up / To bright it up, yeah", reinforcing the sense of despair and hopelessness experienced by the singer. The second verse highlights the struggle of overcoming the feeling of loneliness and the desire to go back to the old version of themselves before the heartbreak. The lyrics "I want it back / I want the old me / I'm trying to forget / But things just remind me", reflect the pain of losing someone and the difficulty of moving on from the past.

Overall, the song conveys a bittersweet feeling of nostalgia and the struggle of breaking free from the darkness of loneliness.

Line by Line Meaning

I get lonely when you're not here
I feel empty and sad when you are not with me

And this darkness appears, leaving me stranded
I am consumed by darkness and feel lost and alone

My hope washes down
I lose all hope and optimism

You never lived here
You were never really present in my life

And I never felt I ever had you
I never truly felt like we had a strong connection or bond

There's a million things
There are countless things that I want to say

But you never really knew that
You were never aware of my true thoughts and feelings

But you never really knew I felt this way
You never knew how much I was struggling and hurting

Wanna take it back
I wish I could go back in time

Wanna take it back to when we had it just like that
I want to go back to a time when things were simpler and happier

Had it right on track
Our relationship was going well and we were in sync with each other

And I keep falling in this darkness
I am constantly sinking deeper into this state of despair and sadness

And there's no one to light it up
There is no one to guide me out of this darkness and towards the light

To bright it up, yeah
To bring back joy and happiness into my life

I never had thoughts that control me
I never used to be consumed by negative thoughts and emotions

Until something bad left me so lonely
Until a negative event happened that left me feeling incredibly alone

And I want it back, I want the old me
I long for the person I used to be before everything became so difficult

I'm trying to forget, but things just remind me
I am trying to move on from the past, but memories keep resurfacing and causing me pain

Writer(s): Rosemary Clare Louise Francis

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